I've been writing this little blog of mine for just over 2 and a half years now and when I started it, I had little idea about blogging at all- I'd never really read a blog, so had little comprehension of what it was all about. I would say that I've never really been able to fully throw myself into my little blog though, mostly because of time and other commitments, and I certainly didn't think I'd stick at it for as long as I have. I may not have the huge following that other big blogs have, but whatever I do or share on my blog, you can guarantee I have thrown my absolute heart and soul into it, often staying up well into the early hours, sitting editing photos, writing posts or replying to emails.
I absolutely adore creating content for my blog, taking our family photos and sharing them. It's become one of my biggest passions. I think I have surprised many people who know me in 'real life' that firstly I started a blog in the first place, and secondly, that I've stuck at it for this long. I am an incredibly reserved person and rarely let my guard down. At school I was painfully shy and I really, really hated my entire secondary school career. I've always suffered with terribly low self-esteem and being in my school did little to help this. I am naturally very anxious and I think it's only since I've started my blog that my confidence has started to grow (if only a little). I have always been terrible for comparing myself to others, and it's something I still do now, even though I wish I didn't.
But since starting my blog, I feel that it has taught me to start believing in myself a little more, bit by bit. Sure I may not have the biggest following in the world, but being a part of this wonderful, creative blogging community has fired a flame inside me which didn't exist before. I am truly passionate about something, I feel inspired daily by other amazing bloggers and want to learn and improve every day. I am still so lacking in self-belief but I know I need to push myself to have better self-esteem. Aside from photography, another thing I have got really interested in is video. I have normally captured things like our days out and holidays, but for so long I rarely appeared on camera, let alone speak on camera. The thought of it terrified me and it took me a long time to get the courage to post a chatty type video. Making and editing videos is definitely time consuming, but it's something I want to do more of. I still feel awkward talking to a camera and wince at the sound of my own voice (although doesn't everyone!?) but I am incredibly proud of myself for overcoming my anxieties and stepping out of my comfort zone. Never in a million years did I think I'd be doing this all those years ago.
And so onto Vlogmas. I sort of did Vlogmas last year but ended doing a weekly version rather than daily so the editing took forever. I was also exhausted as I was 9 months pregnant with Little L. That sort of put me off doing it again this year. I said to myself that we had enough on with trying to sort the new house out and decorating, settling LO in at his new playgroup and things. But then last minute I changed my mind and suddenly got the urge to do it again this year. I am so pleased we are doing it. I have been loving taking my camera out with us this week, capturing memories I know I would never capture normally. It's a really special Christmas for us this year as it's L's first Christmas and it's also our first Christmas in our new house. I am so excited to capture our memories as a family this December and I hope you'll enjoy following us and just generally seeing what we get up to in our day to day ordinary lives. For me, it's not just about capturing the big exciting festive events, but the more ordinary everyday moments along the way too.
Here are the first few days of Vlogmas if you fancy a look. I haven't ventured much into the world of Youtube yet and as such I don't have a huge number of subscribers, so if you haven't yet subscribed to my channel I'd really love it if you could.
Linking up with Katie from Mummy Daddy Me for The Ordinary Moments